it's okay if i plug my nose and get alone tonight
i can justify that through blogging about it
and if i make money doing that then i can justify it even more
i will ride the train and sit in the waiting area playing solitaire
it will be okay because i know that you're at home sleeping feeling better
and i'm feeling worse because soon i'll have a fever and i'll pass out in your room
which is the only place that i feel full and good about myself
let's talk it out potentially but i don't want to because you're being tired
i'm going to run around the streets of new york and be healthy
hold me because i'm an intelligent person trapped an idiot's body
we can be one another's best friend for at least forever maybe
i want to take my shoes off but i am wearing two pairs of socks for warmth
this is funny i am making myself laugh potentially
there are so many good places to get hotdogs in new york city
which will i choose, i will choose gray's papaya due to proximity and price
i will walk around in circles for blocks to gain your approval
i will get lost to learn more about my surroundings
i will forget what i am going to say or type and work on fixing errors
errors are everywhere, but mostly in typing and i am getting better at not having them
you look good today and everyday and especially when you're wearing blue shorts
and i look bad today and everyday and especially when i'm alone in a small quiet vacuum
no, i'm just kidding someday none of this will actually matter
but right now existentially everything matters
everything matters, doesn't it
does writing poetry when you're alone in a small quiet vacuum negate the significance of the artistic experience
will i ever affectively edit anything
and when i yell out loud it's not that i'm trying to hurt anyone
it's just that i want to voice my opinion and i feel so quiet sometimes
and i only feel alone when you're not with me
do you get that
or do i have to explain it in a painting that i don't have the ability to accomplish
i'm going to submit this later
to a literary magazine or an online poetry publisher
hopefully they will like it, i wonder if i'll include this part
i have a brand new manager who listens to me and is completely unbiased
i tell him things and he says 'thank you that is helpful'
mostly i just want to tell you that i think you look good in blue shorts
i am asleep now, isn't this weird that i am still able to type
let's hang out and drink poland springs waters
remember when i worked at a farm and you came to visit me
we went into the pumpkin patch and walked around and you took pictures
then we went to the hill at the veterinary school and i wanted to fall asleep in your lap
you left then and went back to new york and i continued to work on the farm
i looked at the pumpkins as they started to get old and some of them rotted
i got fired and i took home my radio